August 23, 2022

Long time, no write.

My life hasn’t been extremely eventful in the time I missed. Currently, I am in the process of getting a new job, starting my last semester before my bachelor’s degree, and looking into master’s programs.

In my time away from my blog, I continued reading. I have now read 10 books so far this year, I am currently struggling with reading every day. I have about 5 books waiting to be read on my shelf. Hopefully, I will get the urge to read again and get all caught up with my TBR (To Be Read) Bookshelf.
Another thing I continued doing, or started, unsure if I’ve mentioned it before – is journaling. I signed up for prompts to get sent to me 3 days a week through text message. I’ve also been slacking at continuously doing these prompts, but I’m doing my best to catch back up.
On a not so positive note, I started smoking again. It’s a bad habit that I don’t seem to have an issue with quitting if I have a good reason (such as being pregnant), but it keeps coming back to me. I’m trying to end my breastfeeding journey and starting smoking again has pushed me this decision as well.
Back to a positive, always end with a positive, I have been planning my daughter’s first birthday party! The theme I chose is “Sweet One,” the invites I sent out had the saying, “Donut Grow Up!” on them! I think its adorable an suits her well… along with my feelings on her turning one already (tears).

I had two job interviews, got offered one job, and am waiting to hear back from the other. The better paying and benefits job is the one I haven’t heard back from yet (darn it)! But, I needed a new job because I turned 26 this month and am getting kicked off my mother’s insurance (life changing event (sad face) time to grow up some more, I suppose). The job I had didn’t offer insurance and when I looked into buying it didn’t seem like it was a very good deal. Anyways, I think it’s time for me to get out of the house and time to get my baby used to not being with momma every day.

TWO MORE CLASSES! Finally, this seems like it took forever… probably because it took twice as long as it should have (all my fault, lol). My bachelor’s degree.. I am only two classes away. It doesn’t seem like a huge accomplishment, not to me at least. Maybe because I know in order to make anything decent I will need to have a Master’s degree. But, small steps. Set a good example for my kid, we can do anything we set our minds to.

I am not looking forward to continuing school. But, if I take time off I am afraid I will not continue later. So, I better jump in head first to get the ball rolling. I haven’t spent much time researching and looking into places to attend (online of course) but I will have some time to do this later I do believe.

Maybe I’ll give a life update next month (if I remember and feel like writing).


Sunday, March 13, 2022

Why hello there strangers. I hope everyone had a good day and got a nice nap in, daylight savings really messed me up today.

I’ve really been struggling keeping up with my blog. I spend my free time reading my books now and I recently started doing The 3 Minute Nudge Journal in the mornings.

My life is the same as it has been. Full of my sweet sweet babe, who is now 6 months old. She’s so precious and getting so biggg! I’m ready for another baby but am struggling to get my man on board. He says he wants to wait until she can walk.

My man has been running his dogs a lot and his one qualifies for worlds. (I don’t know what all of that means but I know it’s good!)

I am still slacking on my house duties but not quite as bad. School is almost over for this semester and then I’ll only have one more semester left to get my bachelors if everything works out! I’ve already been thinking about getting my masters in social work.

Now I need to get some reading in!

Thursday, February 3, 2022

Good Morning ☀️ How is everyone? I’m doing well. Crushing one of my New Years resolutions so far. Want to read 12 books this year, I figured I’d be able to read one a month. In the month of January I read 3 books total. My classes didn’t start until the end of the month so I had a lot of free time in the beginning. Slowly starting to lose free time. Also when I’m reading I tend to neglect other areas of the house that need work like laundry, dishes, and all other cleanings.

School is proving to become boring to me again. I hate these stages. I made a resolution to be on Dean’s list again so I need to stay focused and do my best.

My baby is hungry now so it’s time for me to wrap this up. Nice checking in every now and then.

January 16, 2022

I hope everyone has had a good day, or will be having a good day. Whatever fits.

It is currently snowing outside right now, we probably already have at least 4 inches of snow. Snow is so beautiful, but I prefer to have it once a year and that is on Christmas Day. It didn’t happen this year. But is sure is now.

My 5 day quarantine ended today but I am afraid my boyfriend is now getting sick. He was so cold tonight, I think he has a fever. Hopefully it’s just the weather.

Tomorrow is Martin Luther King Jr. Day so I have the day off from work. I need to spend it cleaning my house. Hopefully this actually happens. I tried to start tonight but didn’t get too far. I need to deep clean some things but don’t think that will happen.

I hate cleaning my bathroom and that needs it bad. My cabinet fell off the wall the other night. Very disappointing. Unsure if we can rehang it or if my already very small and limited space bathroom just got even more less space for my things.

Living in this trailer is nice, but holy shit we have too much stuff. It’s not stuff I’m willing to get rid of either. We really need a shed to put my boyfriends tools and the stuff we aren’t using, like the Christmas decorations. They should be off to my mothers house soon for storage because she is just a peach and will keep them for me.

School starts back up next week and I just ordered the books I need. Excited to get it over with but not excited to have less time to do other things such as read and clean and just do as I please.

January 12, 2022

I can’t seem to get myself to make a post everyday now. I don’t know why. I’m struggling to keep up with my life lately. And I don’t even have school work yet. Not a good sign. I just haven’t quite gotten into the swing of things for some reason.

I have the coronavirus right now. I’m sure my baby has it too since we spend everyday together. She seems fine, a little more tired maybe. But that could also be because she is growing. I just want her to be alright. I don’t even feel that sick to be honest.

I’m trying so hard to be a good mom, dog mom, girlfriend, housekeeper, and be good to myself. I’m struggling. I try to be a good friend as well, I struggle at times. My main focus is being a good mom, some days I think I’m doing great. Others, I’m not so sure.

I’m spending too much money lately. On things that I don’t necessarily need. I need to change my bad habits if spending money. I love to buy things. My bank account is hurting. And I need to focus on saving.

Tomorrow I’m going to focus on doing some things around the house. And I’m going to make some snacks as well. I really enjoy baking. I’m not the best at it, but it makes me happy. Probably because I love sweets, which make me fat, being fat makes me sad. So I eat more. Which makes me fatter. It’s a horrible cycle. Life is hard.

I can’t get my baby to fall asleep and stay asleep. I don’t want to let her just cry because I’m afraid she might not feel good. It’s a hard process for me right now. She’s so tired, I can tell.

January 5th

I missed yesterdays post. I went to exchange Christmas presents with my two best buds at the bar. We were there for 5 hours, whoops.

I did take my tree down yesterday though which was a big accomplishment for me. I hate taking the tree down.

Today was boring. My BF hasn’t worked since Monday because of lack of materials or some shit like that. We went and bought a new couch and recliner yesterday, it gets delivered tomorrow!

I have been trying to be extra helpful for the kid I work with during the day. I found this cool site where I can make pretty worksheets. I made him a coping skills sheet.

One of my coworkers has covid so I had to work tonight and now tomorrow as well.

I’ve been trying to let my babe sleep in her crib. She’s doing a decent job of dealing with that change. She’s actually asleep in there now. When I get done in the bathroom I will be reading my book!

I love reading. I’m so glad I made a resolution to read more. Books are like an escape for me. I don’t want to stop once I get started.

Monday, January 3, 2022

I started work back up today. My kid was off task and a bit of a jackass today.

My dad brought some diapers down and visited the babe and then my mom came over. She helped clean up the baby room while I was working and then I got the majority of the Christmas presents taken care of. I did a lot of laundry as well.

I still need to take the tree down and put some of the laundry away.

I’m currently reading my book. I like it a lot. Already halfway through. I’m off to a good start!

I want to read some more before I go to bed. Goodnight everyone!

January 2, 2022

I worked today. I was not busy at all, but I did a lot of cleaning up around the bar and kitchen.

I wish I was as good at cleaning my house as I am at cleaning at work. My house would be at least a little tidier.

I didn’t do much besides make some food and do the dishes when I got home. I just read a few chapters of a book I got for Christmas. It’s called Shiver. It’s pretty good so far! My BF’s mom got it for me. She said she wants to read it when I’m done if it’s any good.

My day job starts back up tomorrow after the two weeks off I had. In a way I’m looking forward to it because it gives me a sense of normalcy/routine. But I am use to being up all night and taking a nap during the early morning if I feel the need for one.

I also still have way to much cleaning to do around my house. I have not unpacked Christmas things from their boxes and I need to take down the tree. The amount of space in this trailer is extremely limited and I have no idea what I’m going to do with my Christmas decorations.

My mother is coming over to visit the babe tomorrow and bringing me a tote for the clothes she outgrew already. Maybe I’ll get my tree down and the decorations all together and send them to her house for safe keeping.

I sent some of the decorations with my sister to Iowa because our great grandma made them and I thought she would like to have some. I didn’t use them all to decorate my tree anyway, it’s too small.

It’s time for me to go to sleep.

January 1, 2022

Happy New Year everyone.

I’ve slacked off on my daily blogging for far too long now. I’ve been very busy and very overwhelmed. Still quite overwhelmed honestly.

Thankfully I will be back in schedule starting this week. Back to my day job, hopefully that will get me back to normalcy. I seem to be able to get more done when my schedule is normal.

Happy Holidays, I never got to wish you all a Merry Christmas because I’ve been slacking so much.

I can’t recall everything that occurred since I last made a post but it was a whole lot of everything and nothing. My parents are split up and have been since before I can remember. So I’ve always had multiple things to do on holidays. Having a boyfriend and a baby makes me feel as though we have to attend everyone’s get togethers.

Exhausting. That’s what that is.

My tree needs to come down. My house needs cleaned. We need new furniture. The list goes on.

It may be a new year, still feels like the same old me tho.


Today was my last day of work until after the new year. I have a few days at the club, but besides that I’ve got some time off!

I did my paperwork, visited my mom, made dinner, and cookies tonight. I currently have all my daughters 3-6 clothes in the wash because she is growing out of her 0-3.

I want so badly to have my house clean and made up all nicely. But it’s not. And I have no desire to clean everything or put everything away. Maybe I’ll get some shit done tomorrow seeing as I don’t work during the day. Let’s hope so.

I asked my BF to help out the clothes away because there are a bunch on the bed right now but he is currently asleep on the couch. Not happening.

He’s such a shithead sometimes.

I feel like there isn’t enough stuff underneath our tree.. it looks so bare. My kid is only 3 months old so it isn’t like she’s opening presents. I just feel bad though.