I can’t seem to get myself to make a post everyday now. I don’t know why. I’m struggling to keep up with my life lately. And I don’t even have school work yet. Not a good sign. I just haven’t quite gotten into the swing of things for some reason.
I have the coronavirus right now. I’m sure my baby has it too since we spend everyday together. She seems fine, a little more tired maybe. But that could also be because she is growing. I just want her to be alright. I don’t even feel that sick to be honest.
I’m trying so hard to be a good mom, dog mom, girlfriend, housekeeper, and be good to myself. I’m struggling. I try to be a good friend as well, I struggle at times. My main focus is being a good mom, some days I think I’m doing great. Others, I’m not so sure.
I’m spending too much money lately. On things that I don’t necessarily need. I need to change my bad habits if spending money. I love to buy things. My bank account is hurting. And I need to focus on saving.
Tomorrow I’m going to focus on doing some things around the house. And I’m going to make some snacks as well. I really enjoy baking. I’m not the best at it, but it makes me happy. Probably because I love sweets, which make me fat, being fat makes me sad. So I eat more. Which makes me fatter. It’s a horrible cycle. Life is hard.
I can’t get my baby to fall asleep and stay asleep. I don’t want to let her just cry because I’m afraid she might not feel good. It’s a hard process for me right now. She’s so tired, I can tell.